I was supposed to be happy when I got a car…

I’m going to be 21 this year… and I still dont have a car or licence. There was always talk when my meemaw was alive that she was going to give me her car or I was going to buy it off her… but she just couldnt ever give it up to me… probably b/c she was hoping to get better and be able to leave the nursing home to live on her own again… I dont for sure know..

But she’s passed… and her car wasnt for ‘anyone’ seeing how the ‘will’ she would always threaten to take everyone off of never existed. So it was up to my dad what to do with any of her stuff *lots and lots of stuff btw*

Its been months now.. but my dad is what you would call ‘very emotional’ and hasnt been able to give anything of hers up… including this car. He doesnt drive or need it either… he constantly complains of it being in his driveway along with the Old RV he just bought with all the money meemaw had after her passing, his truck, moms car, ‘my other car’… *whatever wont get into that one*

this isnt making much sence… sorry

I called my mom to talk today and when she told my dad that I said I loved him all he could say back  was *sigh* I love her too and I’ll have the car over there soon (but he said it like…he was annoyed by me calling… or just in general by me…) I dont know what I did!!!??? I havent even been bothering them about the car, quite frankly I’ve given up about the damn thing and was saving to get myself a car…

so now I feel horrible.

My family has a way to do this to me.